Thursday, August 20, 2009
Tiring day today. Went to teach at Changkat Changi Primary school guzheng today. My students were so much well behaved today, though still I probably still have to shout quite abit over the guzheng sound and my voice became hoarse due to that... Later went to school... Messaged pudding but she still havnt replied... Hopefully she'll reply soon.
Read HER(another her) blog today. I have never really been popular, I just happen to have made many hi-bye friends whom we never really talked... and im more or less the few who is being thrown in the dark in my group. Because I have no interests in becoming a particular fan for bands or groups and no particular shows which Im totally interested in, and nothing new has been happening in my life, I practically live a boring and mundane life and have pretty much nothing to talk about. Have nothing to talk about of my guzheng center or friends there cuz i dun really have much, nothing to talk about shows or movies cause I didnt really watch any yet. It is not I dont tell her anything, but I dont have anything interesting I can talk to her about. That is prob why I keep talking about my other group of friends with her instead though I still think it would probably sound uninteresting to her. I also talked about her and my previous school friends with my clique in SIM too. But I didnt think she'd look so hard on me sharing my school life with her. I wish I had something else besides school life which I could talk about and also make me happy ... Still trying to keep my smile on my face still but it is gradually falling off.
Many times I hoped I could find something I really liked like her. I have always loved chocolates, desserts, singing etc but it doesnt seem to be "discussable"... When she tells me about Arashi, I know nothing much about them. So I have nothing to respond to so generally I only took interest in the more funny parts that she said. But it is not like I didnt like her saying about Arashi. Because of her, I started to get to know this jap boy band and I have never disliked it. Didnt really got interested in it, like getting their information or watching their videos online (I dont do that for any other artistes too) but I do selectively listens to some of their good songs in the album and liked some of the shows that they acted in. Somehow I prefer her to broadcasts the songs she is listening to than she plugs the ear piece in her ears and lives in her own world... And it is not like I didnt want to meet up or anything... But I am horrible at planning anything and have totally no clue on where we should go or what we should do. So feel weird on calling her up and say "hey! lets meet up!" and dont know how to reply her when she says - "So? Where you want to go?"... Of course if I had something I wanted to do it would be so much easier then. But I dont have anything I needed to do for quite a while, so... Im just not that kind of person >.<>.<
Recently my memory keeps failing me. I keep forgetting lots of things and events and finds it hard to remember things as well. Guess my memory got worse again. Maybe should drink more pigs brain soup or something to that extent... Guess the fever burned off a part of my brain =\ Hopefully I can recover from that. Just received news that we will be organising a guzheng performance fundraising for the taiwan disaster. Need to learn a new song. Need to go back on fridays and saturdays... There goes one of my free day. Now I am only free on mondays which is used for studying purpose -_- I want to have a day off!!! X_X I should drink more tonic haha...
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