Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Many things are happening around me and everything is passing so quickly. Got a part time job teaching guzheng at Changkat Primary School on wed & thurs afternoon, nights are schooling period, and my fyp started. Later got horribly sick MIA for quite awhile and I left many things undone. Even now, I still havnt really recovered. After an absence of one week, didnt want to hear more complaints so i had to return to my job even while im still unwell. Not really happy there though but can get experience and some pocket money. Also, I have to go shopping soon if not the complaints will be coming again... Anywayz... things are not really going smoothly recently.
There's this person which i never knew, keep spamming me with harrassment mails. Although I know they are just childish acts to gain attention, but one per day is just overboard, although I dont really read the emails and most of them just heads into junk folder... This person seems to stalk not only me but sends harrassment mails using my name to my friends or using their names to send to me as well. Hoping to gather all the mails sent, prob making a police report.
Anywayz, another issue of friendship which arose... I knew the issue has always been going on and i had no idea how to solve it. Hopefully can clear this up pretty soon.
There is a jap festival this saturday. Didnt know until some online friend asked me whether I had the time to accompany her. Just nice the festival fell in between two saturdays which I have performance. If not I will have to go in late at 830pm again like a year ago or worse still i cant even go. When I agreed to her, it appears she invited a bunch of people both of us also never met before as well. Guess its always good to know more people with similar interests? Was actually hoping to introduce them to my friends too. She appeared to be ok with it but it doesnt seem to be the case though... =\ Anyways, think weide is coming along too. Her sis is performing dancing and she managed to persuade him to go to the event haha guess can see her dance =)
Anyways, I guess this event brought about some misunderstanding between me and my friend =\ Hopefully can clear this up as well.
Anyway, I have read her blog and hopefully she knows I have. Recently, have been quite busy and I guess I have been neglecting my friends while handling and putting importance over many other things as she has pointed out. I agree I havnt been a person to show concern either through action or words and im not exactly outspoken... Most of the time I keep things to myself and increasingly more so recently, and I'm not a person of action or someone who takes the initiative to do things. And because of this I have upset her. Just want her to know that, she is someone who is most special to me and hope she can place more trust in me. I feel most comfortable around her than any other friends of mine and that is why I consider her my best friend. I guess one of the reasons I'm feeling distancing from her is probably because I started feeling like she looks down on me like im inferior or something and she doesnt place trust in me. Though I dont think that is the truth, but i cant help feeling that way myself. And also I think I didnt really know what she likes, since she only talks to me about Arashi and the jap shows... But instead I've got loads what she doesn't, and much more of "anything bah" than everything else... Also, She's gotten so pro in jap now that sometimes i dont really understand what she is trying to convey... We're now in different schools now and probably its because of the different lifestyle in our schools, I'm getting the feel like Im not really progressing compared to them. In our new environment, like her, I've met new friends too. Me and my SIM friends been going for outings and we seem to get along and are quite close but actually they and I are not exactly getting closer to each other... Probably really slowly, gradually and really abit by abit. I guess Im just not really suitable for making friends... =\ I believe the way to recover from this situation is to find a common understanding which we are supposed to have, and the passion and similar interests which we share then, which we seem to have lost now. Hopefully, I can get to get interested in what she is interested in now, clear up all misunderstandings and we can then recover from this hiccup in our relationship.
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